With Love Jessa

Friday, April 14, 2017

So I’m sitting here with my almost 4 year old son and I just keep staring at him with such awe for how much love I feel for him. He’s my son. My child. And I can’t imagine loving anyone the way I love my children. Now imagine that love or if you have children you KNOW that love. Now just think about this: thats exactly how Jesus loves you and me. He loves us like His own children because we are His children. Its why He wants the best for us. Its why when we pray for things that may be bad for us, even if we dont know it yet, that the answer is no or not right now. He is our ultimate protector and He truly only wants whats best for us and whats going to bring us closer to Him.

Now think about that love for a second and then think how we love as humans and honestly its incomparable. Its an amazing kind of love we could never understand. I always struggle with loving myself for who I am. I always feel like I’m not good enough and its something I’ve struggled with pretty much my entire adult life. But if we could look at ourselves through His eyes I think we’d go through life with an entirely different kind of joy and peace than how most of us go through life now – by putting our joy and value in people instead of the one who created us in His image – which lets be honest is pretty incredible.

“I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.”
Psalm 139:14

The bible tells us that we are wonderfully made in His image. He’s the only perfect being in this entire universe so everything He makes is amazing – yes even you and me and every single human on this Earth. He loved us so much that He sent His one and only son to pay the price for our sins and to save us!

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.”
John 3:16

So I challenge myself and I challenge you to start living life through his eyes. Look at yourself through His eyes. Look at your kids through His eyes. Look at your husbands through His eyes. Look at your family through His eyes. Just look at PEOPLE through His eyes. I guarantee it will change your entire life and it will bring you even closer to Him.


Sunday, April 2, 2017

This weekend we were out looking for home decor pieces at Hobby Lobby and Home Goods. Photos and prices below on what we found.

Photos 1 & 2: The table liner we already had and I can’t for the life of me remember where bought that from. The basket we got at Hobby Lobby for $7.99 and the decorative balls we got at Hobby Lobby for 50% off. We paid $7.50.

Photos 3 & 4: This adorable farmhouse-style wall art we found at Hobby Lobby in the clearance section for 50% off. It was originally $34.99 and we got it for $17.50.

Photo 5: Another farmhouse-style wall art with bible scripture. This one was full price at $23.99 but we had a 40% off coupon so we paid $14.39.

Photo 6: This artificial flower we found at Home Goods. Hubby really liked it for our kitchen and we paid $12.99. It was in the clearance section but I have no idea what the original price was on it.

Friday, March 31, 2017

This is a post Ive been trying to find the time to write and because I wanted it written well its taken me some time.

The day was June 30 2013 and it was the most amazing day. We were having our youngest son, Mason, dedicated in our church. I remember going to church that day and feeling completely uncomfortable because I had to get on that stage in front of so many people and I was still carrying to much baby weight. I just felt mortified even though I chose to have him dedicated. Makes sense right? The day was like any normal Sunday except that it wasn’t. That day was the day Jesus chose to save me and change my life forever!

Prior to having my son I wasn’t entirely interested in being a Christian. I always believed in God and believed that He was out there somewhere but I didn’t have any kind of relationship with Him and I didn’t feel worthy of His love. Growing up in a different religion I was taught that you have to work for His love and considering my past I didn’t feel worthy of being anything other than a mistake and a screw up. I made so many mistakes when I was younger that I simply couldn’t fix and I felt like those mistakes defined me even at 32 years old.

My husband was saved in 2005 and for all of those years he had tried to speak the gospel into my heart. I just honestly wasn’t ready to hear it. On September 27 2012 I found out I was pregnant with Mason and 3 days later my husband lost his very secure job. My head was spinning at that point. How could I be pregnant, something we planned, and yet now he has no job!? How could we afford to take care of two kids and a pregnancy with no job. I was completely terrified. While we were going over the finances my husband told me we really couldn’t afford to do much of anything and in that moment all I could remember saying was “Can we at least still go to church?” That was never a huge priority for me before. I have to believe that God put that there because He had the best plan for me. He was going to use this layoff to bring me to Him. From that point on we went to church every single week unless we were sick and throughout my pregnancy there was a gradual change. About halfway through my pregnancy we were invited to attend a small group and at first I was not at all interested. I did not want to go hang out with a bunch of acquaintances and talk about the bible. I just was not interested….at all. But about an hour before the group was going to start I felt this intense desire to go and so we did. Not only did I have an amazing time but we went to that group faithfully for the next year and a half and not only did I make friends for life but I learned about Jesus. I learned about what the bible says about Jesus, not what the world tells you and I realized I was so wrong for so long.

The day of the baby dedication was the day my life was transformed. I was terrified to get on that stage in front of all those people but even though I wasn’t a Christian at that time I felt inside my soul that I wanted my kids to grow up knowing and believing that God loved them and that they could have Him in their lives and He could be the ultimate protector of their lives. We got to church and the time came to go up on stage and I honestly went up on that stage as one person and walked off as someone completely new. The Lord did something amazing up on that stage and I felt it. I felt the Spirit all around me – something I had NEVER experienced in my life. And when I got off the stage I felt completely different. I remember everything about that day. I remember who was speaking, what the sermon was about, even what worship songs we sang. I had never been so in sync with Jesus until that day. After church we were supposed to go to a birthday party and all I remember was wanting to go home and read the bible. I didn’t want to go anywhere but home and I wanted to read. In the next few weeks I didn’t even realize what had happened to me – I just felt so different and I felt this closeness to the Lord that I had never experienced before. It wasn’t until an older lady at church asked my husband “So when was your wife saved?” did I realize what had happened. Jesus chose me. He wanted me and He loved me and He saved me and I gave Him my heart and accepted Him as my Lord and Savior and I have never regretted it.

“And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart.”
~Ezekiel 36:26

“This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!”
~2 Corinthians 5:17

This June will be four years ago that my life was completely changed and while a lot of things in my life have changed there is one thing that has not: my heart will forever belong to Jesus and that’s not something I take lightly or that I’m embarrassed to say or talk about. I’m happy about and I feel honored to be one of His daughters. In a broken, messed up world He gives me hope every single day and I strive to live and love like Him every single day. I am not perfect. I am flawed and broken just like everyone else but that brokenness is why we need Jesus. Its why we have to give Him our hearts and our lives and accept Him as the author and perfecter of our lives. Only through Him can we experience real peace and real joy in our lives.

I hope you all enjoyed this and I hope it inspired you to look to Him for all things.


Saturday, March 25, 2017

So tonight we went out looking for some cute but cheap home decor. We went to Goodwill and Target. Our closest Target is being remodeled right now so it was pretty hard to find much of anything but details below on what I did buy!

These ceramic bowls were only .99 cents each and I thought they were absolutely adorable. I have NO idea what I’m going to do with them yet but I feel like they are really versatile and have so many ways they can be used.

I didn’t find much at Target but I did get this Mrs. Meyer’s Baking Soda Cream Cleaner Lemon Verbena for $3.99. I’ve heard really good things about this stuff so I wanted to try it out. I also got this mini notebook that I want to use to keep track of my food intake. I don’t track my calories but I do like to keep an eye on what I’m actually eating. For those who don’t know I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) and I have quite a few unpleasant body issues that food can make worse so I like to keep an eye on it.

Friday, March 24, 2017

Hello ya’ll and welcome to my personal blog. First and foremost this blog is something I prayed deeply on and for a very long time. I have tried blogs in the past but I always felt like I didnt have much to say so I always gave up. So I had this idea of doing a faith-based blog but I wasn’t completely sure if I could do it. I prayed and prayed and prayed and I feel like doing this blog is a direction God is leading me in so I decided to just go for it! This blog will be a way for me to express myself about things in my real life as well as my walk with the Lord.

My name is Jessica and I’m a 36 year old mama of three. I’ve been married for almost 15 years to my best friend and the love of my life. I live in Hooper, Utah and I’ve lived here since late 2001. My days are mostly spent taking care of and spending time with my children, cleaning, cooking and taking care of my home. I dont have a ton of free time being a mommy and all but some of the things I enjoy doing when I do have some free time is watching Hallmark movies, binge watching television series on Hulu or Netflix, web design, creating planner printables, watching moms on YouTube, cooking and organizing. My home is my sanctuary and I strive to make it a warm, welcoming place for my family. I enjoy being thrifty and finding deals on amazing products. I try to live a simple, modern minimalist life and while I do like to have nice things I recognize that wanting and needing are two completely different things.

Some of my favorite things are: Erin Condren products, Lush, colorful pens, coffee, getting my hair done, and photography.